i'm just a kid. and life is a NIGHTMARE.

2006-05-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

Dear,

Members of Kuo Chuan Presbyterian Secondary School Band, Students or to who it may concern,

I, Justin Mark Vanderstraaten, am writing this apology to all of you now. I'm sincerely sorry for what i've said and done to insult you. it wasnt intentional. i was majorly pissed off at that point of time when i posted those remarks on my blog. For involving the whole kcb, i apologize. i insulted one member and all of you swarmed here. this may seem hard to believe from your point of view but i admire this quality in all of you. all of you stuck up for him when your loyalty was tested. people like jayne, kenneth, adriel, peiqin, dine, eiji and bent. those who are in kcb, i guess mr andy sim really thought you well huh. your team spirit is impeccable. all of you stuck up for one another. the band im part of sadly, has no such team spirit. i admire that quality in you.

Another thing i admire about kcb is the desire and passion. another thing my band lacks. all of you are so dedicated to kcb. loving and caring for yor band so much. practising and giving your everything. yes, including niki. i saw that man. dude, im sorry for everything and all the bullshit i've said. i let the emotions take control. i was in a fould mood. i believe you're a real nice guy. seriously. i was being an asshole man. dude, im sorry. i've realized its stupid and pointless to continue this banter and war of words. i even forgot what it was about. dude, im calling it quits now. i wont fight anymore. chill.

jayne, kenneth, adriel, peiqin, brent, dine and eiji. though i dont know some of you personally, i do know that you defend your friends really well. if i;ve insulted you in anyway, i am sorry too. you 7 showed great concern for niki. i believe your great people. the friendships all of you fromed in kuochuan really holds strong huh. those who were from the primary school, when i was in the same uniform as you guys, i had pride in my school. the teachers, the friends, the spirit. mr wong. come to think of it, only now do we realize he was slightly gay and feminine and nothing to be afraid of. anyway, glas to see all of you have brought the friendships and spirit to the secondart school. you stand up for your friends no matter what. once again, i apologize for everything i've said to insult you. i tip my hat to you. i wont fight anymore. chill. to the person who tagged as me, chill.

this sums up my apology. you can either accept it and make peace, or continue hating my guts. that decison is ultimately up to you. this may sound like crap to you. it may sound gay. whatever. i've said my sorrys already.

i just wanted to apologize for any negative or unhappy thoughts harboured while reading my blog. this is my attempt at making peace with all of you. you decide.

feel free to tag comments, replies or opinions.

fighting is just too troublesome.

peace out,

jieding.

song of the day:

yellow brick road - eminem.

2006-05-13T10:10:00.000+08:00

its sSATURDAY today!

currently tired. slept at 12.30 close to 1 after watching survivor yesterday. nobody got voted out! 'to be continued' 'cos there was a tie in the votes. aras is hilarious.

anyway, to our buddhist readers, heres wishing you a belated HAPPY VESAK DAY!
(:

oh and i have royally screwed my chances of going for 'vaunt'. damn. dont ask why. hahaha. SORRY CHERYL!

just had chinese tuition. it was okay. at least i was paying attention. hmm. rare.
oh and readers, if you have been reading my tagboard, you woul know that people like jayne, kenneth and adriel have been tagging my blog.
okay, i only know jayne. and everything between her and me has been cleared. about me insulting kcb and stuff.
HEY PEOPLE! im really SORRY if i insulted kcb! i didnt mean to okay! my fault. i apologise for that.

oh and i was wrong. niki does have friends. oops. friend. the tags make you wonder doesnt it. were kenneth and jayne defending their band or him? readers, contemplate! then tag your answers on my blog! hahaha. so he technically has a friend(singular) in adriel. HA-HA-HA! please tag comments!

see, my blog is INTERACTIVE! YAY!

SONG OF THE DAY!

BE MY ESCAPE by relient k!
GRRREAT song! i personnaly prefer the acoustic version though. do approach me for the songs if all of you want them okay?

i found that on viviens blog! COOL RIGHT! THANKS!
http://versedeserved.blogspot.com/

PEACE OUT PEOPLE! (:

2006-05-12T12:25:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!

listening to the awesome songs vivien sent me yesterday. real nice.

the ruckuss on my blog is really quite intresting. entertaining too! i've said what i've wanted to and now i just sit back and watch. some people just dont see both sides or just dont want to admit it. im right! HAHAHA. individuals vary once again. COOL SHIT.
sadly, all good things must come to an end. awww. all you poor readers of my blog. i feel sad together with all of you! lets heave a collective sigh together shall we! SIGH. i'll change the 'password' although its like quite easy to hack. damn. anyway, may be going to the beach on tuesday! our very own maris stella holiday!
boy oh boy. beach soccer and volleyball! + the hot bikini babes. yes im a red blooded male. you mean you arent? weird. (;

oh and i was watching this video on youtube sent by my bestie joan. dont worry people, im still single. lucky you! she has a boyfriend anyway. TSK what were you thinking. BACK TO THE POINT, the video was 'bole chudiyan' which is a indian short clip. the singing part! 0h gosh. it was like freaking cool! the singing was awesome! the dancing was better! i mean can you imagine how long it take s to perfect all the dance moves? then x100 people! mass dance! and thats just the men's side. oh man. indians are cool man. its the only race in Singapore thats not in my veins! yesyes, somewhere along the line i have malay blood. WEIRD. hahaha. oh and indians have huge eyes. once again : cool! and they can make sound effects with their bangles! another plus! BOLLYWOOD IS LESS COMPLICATED THAN HOLLYWOOD!

*snigger snigger*

oh comeon! its true okay.
and the ironic thing about maris stella is that we sing the school song only cause it sounds communist and we are slightly racist in our 4 years in maris stella but once we step out for further educaton, the first friends we make will be that of other races. maybe its karma. (; im fr race equality! YAY! down with stereotypes!

OH OH OH! song of the day time! keeping with today's theme. it is....

Sexy Mama by BOMBAY ROCKERS!

its a real band okay! and the song is super nice! bhangra dancing uber cool too!
so people, if you want the song of the day, just approach me on msn okay?

OH THE IRONY! im off to study my CHINESE now. )=

see you later folks!

(:

2006-05-11T16:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

im back!
oh gosh chinese tuition was a killer. had to memorise all the words and sentences.
blahh
just had to grit my teeth and do it.

OH OH OH! song of the day time!

geek in the pink by jason mraz!
the song kicks ass man.

oh and apparently my blog's more intresting when i diss! HAHAHA.
ironic.

anyway, im psycho-ed by friends like dionne, cheryl and eugene into somehow believing my holidays are here already! just cause their exams are over already or didnt have exams! =O my chinese isnt even over! hahaha.
i've seriously got to get my chinese together before i engage in any really fun activities.
i wanna go to the beach! bring on the beach babes baby! (: i need a tann too! life's rockin now. hope it gets better after i get my results back! can party in june in peace!

anyway, will leave you with some verses from geek in the pink!

smell you later! (:

Well this relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody

But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her

Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter

At least I talk about it keep a pattern of flattery and

She was starin' through the doorframe

Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend

Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then

Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention

See,

I don't care what you might think about me

You can vibe without me if you want

I could be the one to take you home

Baby I could rock the night alone

If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down

But sugar don't forget what you already know

I could be the one to turn you on

We could be the talk across the town

Don't judge me by the color, confuse it for another

You might regret what you let slip away

Im the geek in the pink

2006-05-11T09:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
i'll be blogging twice today so watch for my later post!

http://geraleine.blogspot.com/

what are you doing reading my blog?! quote:
"wilfred: no. Didnt bother to. not going to."
&
"wilfread: nah i wont bother to. how actually bothers to anyways?!"

i take by these statements that you do not read my blog. so why are you blogging about me? i was perfectly fine before. i have the right to blog what i want in my blog too. so did you FORGET? or did you just not want to say you read my blog? why not? PRIDE? you dared not admit it just because of PRIDE? think its fabricated? you know. i trust you do.

yes? yes.

oh and i think my msn is kinda screwed. it apparently doesnt get some messages from people. then the next day they ask me why i've 'dao-ed' or ignored them. maybe my com has selective hearing.
HEY! thats pretty cool!

oh and sensitive people, dont read my blog please. im scared all of you out there will get paranoid and think its about thee. if you dont see your name there, its not about you. okay? good.
my lenten promise was to stop saying 'fuck. hmm i shall try to keep that promise. if i diss, it'll be without 'fucks'! uber cool right?

ahh. i digress.

oh and wanna know an intresting fact about me? i dont insult easy! i have lost almost all my PRIDE.i have been called countless things in school. MY personal favourite however, is vagina. its like OH WOW! im the most important part of the female anatomy. how cool can you get man! . yeah. thats right. you can ask all my awesome school friends. who if all of you weird people think are 'bengs' your sadly mistaken. chances are, we look better than you, are intellectually better than you and we have higher class. HAHAHA. pretty cool eh. now now, dont get jealous. its a deadly sin right up there along with pride. truth is, we just have better genes.
sorry people. thats the truth.
now dont get all emo on me. that shit was so passe.

oh look! the history people have finished their exams already! now we all have to prepare for chinese on monday. damn thing.
ANYWAY,

my dear dear readers, being my friends, all of you dont have to please me. what kind of friend would i be if i was like that?! so whoever has that whacked notion, what were you thinking?! i treat my friends with dignity and respet. unless you're different. individuals vary from person to person you know. so, 'you please me'? HAHAHAHHAHA
*guffaws! seriously, i think you people crack me up. that is just plain hilarious.
oh and by the way, my wilfred darling was not under any orders to advertise on your blog. and no. i dont think he'd like to screw a penguin. animals isnt his thing.you mean they're your kind of thing? yeah. can tell. i mean him? yeah. oh well. individuals differ.and does wilfred look 'beng' to you? nah. have you seen real 'bengs'? ah nevermind.
but well, i think you did a much greater job of advertising. THANKS! (:
oh and another thing! i've suddenly become a prince! major wow. same people, same thoughts.
me? blue blood? HA-HA-HA. have you seen my dad? and no. i dont hate. i just abhor.
(:

you'll probably know my next password. due to the html thing. so please do not blog it unless you want me to use a whole new skin with exactly the same template. THANKS! (:

in conclusion,

there simply was just no apology received on my part. what makes you think i wasnt hurt? and no. i dont play. you believe everything you hear no? well. its just to bad you feel that way. im just this perceived play boy to you anyway. aww. thats sad.

so the answer to your question "why do you hate me so much when i did nothing to you?" quite frankly, doesnt lie with me.
ask your friends. they should know better than me.
it seems to be all about them anyway. since they play such a big part in your life. how am i to compare to them? the 'balloon snatching, making kids cry, playboy' guy. let them make the decisions for you then. better still, come with a warning : psycho and jealous EX boyfriend and friends included. date at own risk.

(;

you wanted to know? here's your answer.

hohoho alot of people are getting famous on my blog. fame wannabes kindly take note! just piss me off! no hard feelings man.

good day to you.CHEERS! (:

2006-05-10T16:37:00.000+08:00

oh wow.

im posting again. about ONE person. oh wow niki koh. shouldnt you be honoured.

yeah boy. your famous now.
http://colgatebrent.blogspot.com/
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=7375933

woah. you sure still care a whole lot for your EX girlfriend. WOW! arent you almighty. what a rolemodel!
oh and did you know how many times she mentioned your name when i went out with her? it made me sick. arent you happy now. go get back with her. YAY! whoops. sorry. i've had enough bullshit for a year.

and whats this bullshit of me being afraid of you? and if i remeber quite correctly, i had never said "i wanna go home". i said i had better things to do thn to get into a childish fight with you. and what were you trying to squat for. oh yeah! i forgot your a proclaimed "blackbelt" OH HURRAY! bitch. were you rehearsing your ballet pirouette? you looked like you were. i wouldnt be surprised if you did.
me a wuss? sorry. i dont tear. oh and one more thing. im not like you. mohawk? please. that thing was fugly on you. sad disgrace. what, you trying to be a drummer boy? you cant drum shit. kcb percussion has no rhythm at all. even your section mate says so. how do i know? he's my tuition mate dumbass. you used to play the sax? dude. i used to think kenny g was the lowest you could go. you just brought my instrument to a whole new level of disgrace.

hey.im sorry man.
hmm. why dont you take a 5 minute break so you can wipe your tears before you continue reading okay?

unlike you. i have brains. sad but true. i have awesome friends too. you know what julia thinks of you? you dont right. thats why you're different from me. i have class. you? sorry mister. try again. you claim you have balls. what took you 2 or 3 months before you even held her hand? thats pathetic man. i kissed her on the second date. awww.i bet you can taste your sweet tears of a loser now yeah. you poor guy. dont act tough using a keyboard man. your behind a computer screen. unless you really come after me with a keybard. now THAT'S ironically hilarious.

now now. dont be sad. a little criticism never hurt anyone did it.
i got a little joke for you dude.
how many chin-ups can niki do? give up?
10! wanna know why? simple. its just cause he's got 10 chins to lift!
laughing yet? oh c'mon. I thought it was funny.
oh and im watching 'whose line is it anyway' while writing this. (:

yeah boy. you're fat. you're not as fit as me man. it may sound cocky, but thats the truth man. dont worry man. there's always national service for you. you've got time man. have you reached puberty by the way? your brain appears to have not matured at all since i saw you in primary school. you're pretty short for a guy now-a-days too. or maybe im just tall. awww. we cant all be hot can we. life's like that man. dont be sad. just trust in the lord. (;

dont worry man. im sure theres a whole group of people out there who would wanna be yours. what you worried about? unless you know something i dont. oh and you masturbate in form of your com? uh. good for you. glad to know your getting your stress released. no pun intented though.

and unlike you, who used 10 'fucks' in a 23 line post. i've used zero 0. and i wrote 66 lines. i rest my case. i have class. you dont. and the ratio of yours to mine is like 10:0 and 23:66 . you do understand ratio right. you do? good. shit i keep getting you messed up with a dog. im sorry. honest mistake on my part. i

i abhor you. get that clear.

dude. no hard feelings yeah. chill.
here's a tissue. wipe those tears. lifes a bitch aint it.

try to take it in slowly. oh and do check the dictionary for words you dont know. you'll improve your english too!
(:

yours dearly,

justin darling.

2006-05-10T10:49:00.000+08:00

emath 1 was pretty alright today.

didnt think i did that badly. im just paranoid that i'll be careless and fail or worse. not get my A! im banking on emath as one of the 5!
argh!
mmhmm. no school tomorrow.
can sleep in! YAY! stupid chinese on mon. DAMN.
i think i'll fail it. i should go study.
chemistry is already a lost hope for SA1. biology is a unkonown factor. may or may not pass. the rest are the subjescts that im supposed to get my A for.
dont play.pray. GEDDIT? hahaha. pck spinoff.

song of the day time!

Life of A salesman-Yellowcard.
its a nice song but it doesnt apply to me. awww.

go search the lyrics to know what its about. alternatively, just come find me on msn. will be glad to send it to you.

CHEERS MATES!.

(:

2006-05-09T12:40:00.000+08:00

AMATH today!

went quite well. no makor screw ups. minor ones though. just hope i can get my A. i think i somehow can.
just hope i dont fail.

eh clara! if i get an A you still owe me a dare! HAHAHA. that girl bet with me that manchester united would win the english premier league. HAH! DORK! =p

in other news,

i've found somewhere to crash if i go for Vaunt. you know that Ministry Of Sound event on 30th may? yes. THAT one.
i'll be sleeping on the dirty floors of cheryl ala w*nk*r's room. her house is like a 30 second walk from mine. my mom would have probably latched the doors by then so yeah. void decks are'nt an option either. thats if her mom allows la. i wont touch her anyway. cheryl leh! eeyeeer. (;
yeah. so depends on what her mom says. if cant then i'll just thon la! go to the beach or something. or walk around our small island we call SINGAPORE!

no big deal!

i'll just look like a zombie in the morning! =P

gonna study my emath now! emath 1 tomorrw. no calculators! =( then i'll have to wait till monday to end the pain of exams. no school on thursday AND friday! vesak day. probably spend all my time trying to improve my HORRIBLE chinese.

haha yeah.

I won't worry my life away!
jason mraz- the remedy! song of the day!
hahaha

later fags! =D

heh.

joke of the year. now everyone go HA HA HA.

[ wilfred - says:have ytou ever liked me

[ wilfred - says:well tats one only sentence i understand

[ wilfred - says:she's nt saying you're insecute

[ wilfred - says:she's saying tat you are feeeling insecure.

[ wilfred - says:and you're feeeling insecure because she's like close with niki .

[ wilfred - says:and she's triying to say. tat u're taking it out on HER feelings. meaning you did nt care bout her feelings.

[ wilfred - says:and the middle sentence

[ wilfred - says:she trying to say tat she gt her freedom to make frens and go with whoever she wants to . like no noe has te right to interfere her fishing in the ocean

[ wilfred - says:btich.

[ wilfred - says:and in conclusion, she's trying to bullshit jst making her post look longer. and she want to act short note.

[ wilfred - says:understood-ED?=D

2006-05-08T14:12:00.000+08:00

social studies today.

not bad. quite easy. wrote quite a lot. mmhmm. confident.

totally ignore one chap that we were supposed to study but just choe the other question for SEQ. the easier question. HAHAHA. take that suckers!
anyway,hope i can get my A.
that makes 3 already if everything goes well.
to reach my goal, im supposed to get A for everything this week. amath tomorrow. and emath after that. STUDY!
chinese next week. im trying to get an A. thats like wtf. me? a? doesnt seem to go together. BAHHH.

study, pray hard and hope for the best!.

=D

oh and im going goth in december.
not THAT goth but just with eyeliner, long hair and lip piercing. goth-punk? HUH. yah la. poser la. poser. -.-
and im NOT vain dionne! wtf.

something like this.

or this.

2006-05-05T12:16:00.000+08:00

tadays paper.
biology.

it was okay. lost 10 marks though.
stupid section C questions. how the hell am i supposed to know about penicillin? i didnt bother about the notes la!

pffffft. stupid.

if i fail how? thats like chem and bio both gone case. damn. must get an A for chinese! angmoh get an A and shame you all chinese people.
HAHAHAHA

a and emaths both must get my As too. thats 5 in total for my lip!
eng, geog, e math, a math & chinese(wtf)/social studies/bio(not much hope)

bahhhh.

see you later morons.

if you cant forget him,

how are we going to start?

maybe its not meant to be.

maybe it was a mistake on my part.

ooh. insecurity's a bitch aint in ladies and gentlemen.

2006-05-04T15:42:00.000+08:00

today was sweet and sour.

geog was super freaking easy. or maybe i just studied the right stuff. thought it wasnt bad. i think i can get my A. hopefully! ;) pray!

chemistry was sooo screwed. or maybe i didnt study hard enough. im gonna fail chemistry. i know it. ohwells. wasnt expecting a pass. even my mom said so. bahhh.

biology tomorrow. before the weekend. hope i make it there! can i survive tomorrow? i need another A! just in case.

PLEASE?

i shall go study now. or later. =p.

ciao.

dont play with me. please?

how was i supposed to know? you never told me.

2006-05-03T10:57:00.000+08:00

maths was okay. emaths 2.

not bad even. =p
but im scared i'll be careless or screw up horribly and fail.
OMG!
bleah.

geog AND chem tomorrow. like WTFFF. both got so much to study.
oh wells.

gonna get lunch, study, masturbate then sleep.
XD LOL

i may scan my face later. yeah.

see you later fags.

2006-05-02T14:07:00.000+08:00

exams are okay.
so far.

i think im gonna die by the end of the exams though.
nevermind. stay positive.

phone's down. how convienient. one less distraction.
sorry to all if i've 'dao-ed' your messages! =(
will be back up like next week? SORRY!

gonna study my maths now. then im gonna masturbate and take a nap. XD

smell you later!

2006-04-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

sports day today.

it rained just before the relay events. i was in 4x400m relay with wilfred, collin and guangwei.
wanted so much to win the medal. didnt care what colour it was. wilfred ran to third. then he passed the baton to me. i pushed myself REALLY hard. was sprinting. wanted to overtake the second guy before he cut into the first lane. didnt happen. i was sprinting behind him. last 50m i got cramps in four different places of my legs. pushed myself to hand the baton to collin. still in third. collapsed on the field. sat there dizzy and aching.

collin dropped the baton while passing it to guangwei. we were stil in third. then when they wasted time picking it up, got overtaken. i was praying hard that guangwei would catch up. didnt happen either. got 4th or 5th. not sure. threw up twice after the run. got really dehydrated. felt like crap. felt like fainting. called mom to fetch me.

drank milo and didnt really stretch before the relay. guess thats why i sucked.

losing sucks. after all the effort we put in. cant blame collin. its a team event. guess we just werent good enough. guess i didnt pray hard enough.

2006-04-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

Dear CHERYL TAN MEI SHAN,

a very BIG thank you to you for the WONDERFUL hand-made card. it really strated my day right.im sorry too. for all the stupid and mean things that i said in my post. and i finally found out what the two words are! YAY! yes. live for the moment okay? you take care and always stay happy. (:

love:
your friend,
the thickhead.

2006-04-24T16:53:00.001+08:00

im blasting linkin park songs at home now.
i only do this when im in a bad mood or had a fucked up day.

yes. today is one of those days. today's band was a complete waste of time. and i've just realised i HATE gays & sissies. yes i do. they are fucking irritating. like stop acting cute okay. its downright annoying. life's not a beauty pageant so stop acting like your in one. i don have time to tolerate your stupid acts. kindly do not stalk me. unlike you, i have a life. i cant be bothered about your bitching and whatever. stop thinking i care. i shall not bother about all of you anymore.

got pretty banged up today.

this fucking gay hit me on the head with a music stand while i was playing my sax for the sports day rehersal. asshole. then i hit my elbow on the metal bar in the bandroom. banged my toe on the door of my classroom.

then after band, i went with stanley to see mrs tey to ask for our bio class test marks. stanly wanted to know his. then she was like " justin mark, did you study?" then i went err, no. then she said " you have to study for SA1 you know." then i walked off. which means i probably failed.

got 3rd in class for english. the total of all the CAs, homework and other bullshit. lost to some gay fags.

today's just not my day huh.

2006-04-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

im sorry readers! been busy and lazy!

uhm on friday was our cross counutry at macritchie. we being the smartasses that we are, went to thomson cc to play basketball before our run. me, chester, huixiang, jarvis, wenchuen, ryanbenedict. played 3on3 all the way for like an hour. then we went to dump our stuff at chester's house before heading down to macritchie. on the bus this anderson girl took out her phone and pointed the camera to me and hx while she was talking to her friend. wtff. this is like the 3rd time already. always with hx. guess he's too hot yeah.(:

the run was okay.ran with hx, ryan and wenchuen. jarvis couldnt be seen. chester was at the back. didnt train for the run at all. got 90th out of like 350 people in our level. not bad la. considering my stamina sucks. we all got stiches cos of the fluid we drank after our basketball game. i told you we were geniuses. got the free water and went back to chester's house. and guess what. the geniuses decided to go for a swim! and we all got cramps in different areas. we're dumb la. =p

okay today saturday.

went for band in the morning.had an unscheduled social studies lesson with miss lee-my geog teacher and 3g guys when i was supposed to be having sectionals. i was like looking at douglas and collin and she said something like " justinmark wanna join us? ask and you shall recieve." and since i suck at social studies, so i just went for the lesson. after band, we went to see the marching and display bands at the national stadium. saw SHUYI! haha my akltg coach! bukitpangang, tanjongkatong,bowen were very good! i loved thier performances. coolshit.

oh and my phone's working again! sorry people if i doaed your messages or calls.
SORRY! do sms me if you need to cantact me yeah!

and i still need to get boxers for someone. =p

exams yeah.

2006-04-17T17:53:00.000+08:00

mmhmm.

exams in 2 weeks.
gotta REALLY study. 5As for my lip piercing!

YOU CAN DO IT JUSTIN!
just think of all the cool shit you can do after the exams.
+
girls galore! =D

just 4 more weeks to the exams being over.
comeon dude. study!

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2006-04-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

theres one feeling that makes you really happy.

its when you.

-make peace with the world,
-make peace with enemies,
-catch up with friends who you never talked to in a long while.

i did it yesterday cos it was good friday and felt great.

i should do this everyday.

a big thank you to all my wonderful friends. family too! =D

2006-04-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

leave everything at the door.

im crawling back. im antisocial. i shall be antisocial. the world's too fickle for me. i'll come out when i feel better. i was rude. i am rude. so people, if i dont talk to you, im just being antisocial. if you sms me and i dont reply, its my fault. im being antisocial. i'll try to come out as quick as possible okay.

thank you sebesatian for the reality check. leave it up. i'll read it everytime i feel like a moron.

guess thats all. lead a good life okay sis. sorry to make you cry.

goodbye for now world

blink 182- i wont be home for christmas

So I stand with a dead smile on my face ,

Wondering how much of my time they'll waste.

Oh God, I hate these Satan's helpers.

And then I guess I must have snapped,

Because I grabbed the baseball bat ,

And made them all run for shelter.

You people scare me .

Please stay away from my home.

If you don't wanna get beat down,

Just leave the presents and then leave me alone.

2006-04-11T19:38:00.000+08:00

you notice it doesnt rain. it pours.

i have to smash my tv,com and handphone.

thankyouverymuch SA1

2006-04-10T19:14:00.000+08:00

just tell me how and when you want me to stop.
=(

2006-04-08T20:01:00.000+08:00

11 is a VERY nice number.

it shall be increased! =D

2006-04-07T19:05:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS THE BEST DAY EVER!

=D ( repeat x100000000000)
im really high now! sugar rush!
7 times! YAY!
happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy
THANK YOU!

HIGH JUSTIN!

oh and i gave my nametag to someone who really wanted it. ;)

life's okay. its great even!

HIP HIP HURRAY!
=)

2006-04-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

schools been okay.

class 3f does really stupid things. and we take vids of the crap things we do!
HAHAHA.
everythings basically okay.
i just have to understand biology, memorise chemistry and practice maths and everything's fabulous!

dear miss. it was heavenly sweet. thankyou. do it to me again soon please? =D

2006-04-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

screw great.

this was AWESOME!

2006-03-29T17:16:00.000+08:00

jammed in the bandroom on the drums today.
was pitch black.

played whike listening to mp3.
jian dan ai by jaychou,
you're a god by vertical horizon &
collide by howie day.
was experimenting so took longer than i expected.

anyway, was totally fucked up in school today.
dont know why. mymoodswing came.
rare but quite deadly.

i shall entertain yall with an INTERESTING post next time. this is boring. who wants to know about my life? =p

till then kiddos.

2006-03-27T18:11:00.000+08:00

im waiting patiently.

i want my hair to grow.
i want the june holidays to come.
i want my green contacts.
i want my lip piercing.
i want my shoes.

its gonna be worth the wait la.

life's been okay. just tired and jaded.
homework's a drag but im gonna get my 5As for mid year. have too.

damn. i missed out on the kuo chuan performance at the esplanade yesterday. WHY ON SUNDAY?!? wa lau. heard it went great. band was awesome? not suprised. they have so much spirit. they really deserve it. hope to see them perform great at syf '07.

maris stella's band.
BAHHH. c.o.p forsure with this kind of standard. something has to be done.

in other news,
my PREPAID sim card has run out of credit. damn.
bloody thing. but, can call in can call out, can already! somemore got bounce!
blahh. i'll prob get my sim card topped up on wednesday yes?
band tomorrow.

sian 1/2 .

LOL. thats wil's.

2006-03-26T18:53:00.000+08:00

lunch today was a mayhem at the table.
we had crab!
angmoh eating crab?
nononono,

so today was my maiden attempt at eating crab! (okay so im not much of an adventurer. or im a bit backward. =p)
it was damn funny come to think about it. my mom's chinese so she had no problem. me and my sis did! when we cracking the shell, all the meat and what not would squirt out! WE DIDNT KNOW THAT!
which idiot about 2000 years ago, saw a crab and thought, hmm why dont we try eating it?
bahhh.
imagine if we were at a restaurant!
we were in aprons by the end of the meal!.
but all the hassle aside, crab's actually quite nice to eat!
black pepper crab. mmhmmm.

but eating crab was better than the time our mom took us to a chinese restaurant and we got a culture shock. you can spit your bones on the white table cloth?! haha.
and i ate ducks feet without even knowing until i saw the webbed feet. i was like WTFISHBALLNOODLE!
or when my sis ate the abalone and thought it was a mushroom. then she saw the menu and was going, you meant THAT was the abalone?! hahaha

OR that time we wet to sake sushi. what the hell is that on the plate?
you mean red plates cost more? HUH.

BUT

western restaurants,
i really think they should IMPOSE A MINIMUM AGE LIMIT!
seriously.
i dont wanna eat my steak/fish&chips while listening to babies crying, small kids whining or kids wandering around or staring at you.
walau!
OR something worse!
TWITS GOSSIPING OR TALKING AT THE NEXT TABLE!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! i feel like running of a bridge at that one! DIE!
let me enjoy the ambience!
and waiters and waiteresses, dont give us that "the whole world owes me a living" face or attitude. we paid to eat here. at least make it enjoyable for us please?
i promise i'll be a good customer!

angmohs in singapore.
can survive la. we know chinese too! a bit fussy an we wont dare to try new stuff by ourselves! but the food in singapore is generally good la. =P

till next time!

CHEERS! =D

2006-03-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

today was a tiring and happy day!

morning had band.
band-ed ubtil about 12. then left to toapayoh for amaths tuition.
joan was doing her flagday thingy!
so we went round being retarded and making fools of ourselves in public. haha
omg shes like the cutest thing on earth la!
and i got PLASTERED with ymca stickers thanks to her!
=P
then it was tuition, band, church.
after church headed down to bishan to eat.
ate secret recipe. EEYUCKS.

I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WOMEN.
my sis and mom made me wait while they went into shop. i ended up standing and waiting for half and hour plus. and they came out with ONE shirt. then they scolded me for talking to them while still listening to my mp3. according to them, its rude. like wth!
bahhh.

pissed.

2006-03-22T17:55:00.000+08:00

HEY people!
i shall entertain you all with another post of my nonsensical ramblings. why? cause i dont wanna study! simple as that.

school's been rather fun. on monday when we went back to school, besides the frenzy of people copying holiday homework ( i was one of them (; ) , i felt that there wasnt even holidays! everything just went straight back to normal. yeap.

school is a great place to be. and in great places, you get nicknames.
my latest one : mushroom!

curious? wanna know more? fine. i shall not be mean to your pitiful souls. i shall be nice and tell you.
its cause i told the guys im CIRCUMCISED!
major cool right! hahaha.

i mean, being circumcised is like cool what!
go google porn videos. i bet you 5 bucks that the guy in whatever vid you end up with is circumcised. i mean, jews do it! americans do it! malays do it! so coool la!

one other thing. you get to go commando in a sarong for 2 weeks! how cool is that! you actually have a reason to wear a sarong! but yall have been warned. friction's a killer. i should know. i went for the operation during my june holidays last year! what a way to spend your holidays eh.

and being circumcised is hygenic! REALLY! hahaha. cleaner! cause like bacteria doesnt get stuck under the foreskin and increase the chance of UTI(unrinary tract infection) or in lehman's terms, fire wee!

okay people reading this, if you think im a perv, tag my board and tell me! =D

IM CIRCUMCISED AND PROUD OF IT!
so all you people out there, you can call me mushroom if you want!

CHEERS!

2006-03-20T16:24:00.000+08:00

http://vivienism.blogspot.com/

gonna clarify some stuff so yall people bear with me yeah?

1)i do not NOT accept lesbianism.bungs are just a disgrace. i've see VERY few nice ones. the rest are all a disgrace.

2)people follow trends blindly. that hair colour irks me. i therefore rant in my blog. kapeesh?

3)why would i look beng with a lip piercing? i dont dye my hair or wear whacked clothes. yes?

4)yes, you might as well start praying for me. it may be just me but i see a growing number of twits at a younger age. look at friendster. girls as young as 10 acting cute. good luck with your english PSLE man.

5)they DO all have the same hairstyle. look around. and im not the only one who thinks so.
quote- "woke up went central to get a haircut.was sian of getting lousy ones so tried a more expensive one.went to fingerworks.my new hairstyle looks like what all the ah bengs have.so un-unique."
http://echo-park.blogspot.com/
if bengs had at least decent hair/unique hairstyle/are happy with it(good point)- i have nothing to say.

6)its not a problem with this great motherland of ours. its the people who disgrace or glorify it. does singapore wanna be well known for its bengs and bungs? or would we rather be known for our intelligence? yes?

7)i do not blog about races. you will not see a single racist comment on this blog. i love my malay and indian brudders. their culture is fascinating.

but with everything, its is YOUR opinion at the end of the day so you may hate my guts or whatever but this is MY blog so you can just stp reading yeah?

THANKS MANY MANY! =D

people, do visit http://www.ahhliianc0nnectii0n.blogspot.com/ owned by a friend of mine. =)

2006-03-18T15:26:00.000+08:00

heard people got bounced out of zouk at romp if they were under 16.
HAHAHA!
no offence to anyone of you who got bounced.

some people really try to look like party animals.
every little gig or club party also wanna go.
one example is this blogger i "know".every little itty bitty party also go. and shes not even good looking! HA-HA-HA! shes super narccisitic also. please, we can live without seeing you rolling on the floor and we dont need to see what you do with a drink can after you've drunk its contents. -.-'''
ypu can dry hump whoever you bloody want.
WE ARE NOT INTERESTED!

people, if you dont look old enough, dont go!
or if you really want to, please get a fake ic.

anyway, band's going fine. its getting better especially after they converted it back to a military band.the pumping's really fun. but few band people can.
weaklings.=p

trends are so overrated.
i mean, take for example dying of hair.
do you dye it to stand out or do you dye to fit in?
singaporeans all standard. the same shades of brown. go walk around town for 10 mins. you'll probably have seen 10 or more people with the same dyed hair colour!
and the piercing of ears. or other places.
you know, those who pierce their ears in singapore act really tough.
what what? comeagain? or your an ah beng? oh i see.
magical! in s'pore, once you pierce your ear, your a certified ah beng! wtfishballnoodle.

THAT IS SO SAD.
and everyone i've seen with a lip piercing is a beng. heck i'll prove yall wrong and get my lip piercing and NOT turn into a beng!
HA!

pardon my frankness but singaporeans really cheapen the whole look.
look at america! they have REAL goths!( think eyeliner, studs,dark hair,black t shirs, black pants and they sit around going "life sucks" all day long. XD) not some poser ones. the're are two different types of people in singapore schools. the twits( e.g lians and bengs) and the normal people ( nerds, cool people, atheletes blah blah blah.) but the two types of people in the US schools are way different.
the cool people and the uncool people. I BET YOU THIER UNCOOL PEOPLE ARE WAY COOLER THEN OUR UNCOOL PEOPLE.
in america, you pierce your ear, you duNccHh gO typIngg lIkeE thIish dE worxXx. overthere, you're still normal! i hate people who type like that. i also hate people who fluant their wealth. i mean, if i wanna know, i'll ask.(that was so random)=P

and what is it with the typical ahbeng hairstyle?
i mean, FRINGES? oh comeon. you cant be serious. and the long hair behind.
and what the hell is wrong with bengs?
kindly do NOT pair slippers with jeans when you go down to town! or dont carry a small sling pouch near your man boob! and what the hell do you need a hat for?! your in an air-conditioned place you moronic fool.

YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO THIS BLOODY COUNTRY.

2006-03-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

do i look older that i actually am?

buy vodka, i become a poly student.
go shopping, people come up to me and say "do you have this in large"

WTFFF
im 15 ths year!
i want a normal childhood.

but it is pretty cool looking older.

when you're young, you wanna look old. when you're old, you wanna look young.

THATS LIFE FOR YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS.

2006-03-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

i hate acne. i hate pimples.

im currently having a breakout.
@$#*&!(#!&#($&$!
damnit. cannot step out of the house.
have to stick to the cleanse,tone,moisturise.
='(
i realised i need alot of stuff to look better.
ties, shirts, jeans, whatnots.

i need my hair to grow.
my mohawk in june. my lip in dec.

just have to do the waiting then.

shucks.

2006-03-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

due to public response, i shall blog once again. blog, i order you to breathe. let the blood of my literary ramblings pulse through your veins. THOU SHALL BE REVIVED!

okay so im not the guy who created frankenstein but who cares. life's been having its ups and downs. bloody school. failed 3 subjects. passes maths but failed sciences.damnit.
5A1's for mid year for my lip to get skewered. blahhhh
schools been not so bad. quite good luh. cant complain much.

oh and you know THAT incident about the guy wo was wanking near te window & a woman from the opposite block saw him and complained to the cops? uh huh. THAT one. so the guy was doing it deliberately, but if he wasnt, would that woman have kicked up such a fuss?
i mean, its your house( or maybe he just rented a room, that cheap bastard) but the point is, its your space, your allowed to do what you want right? if you dont like it, look away!
whatthefishballnoodle! have you never seen a naked body before?

singaporeans are a bunch of pricks with thier chopsticks stuck up thier ass.

dont hate me cos im me, hate me cos im everything you wanna be.
handsome, rich plus legendary.

we banging it.

2006-03-06T19:17:00.000+08:00

today sucked.like REALLY SUCKED.
imsure tomorrow will be better though. jut gotta suck it up and move on.have to work harder.
i'll have to ask myself more often : how bad to i want it?

but hey. i should be grateful for my friends.

to all my friends out there,
thankyou for all the good and fun times.

2006-03-02T14:43:00.000+08:00

Anglo-Chinese School (Independent)

which secondary school (singapore) should you be in?

i got 16.5 over 25 for geog!
HAHAHA
second in class. bloody ian lam got 1 mark more than me.
thanks miss lee for the lolli!

2006-02-28T17:21:00.000+08:00

YAY!

quite high today.
passed my emaths common test! 32/50.
okay, so its not the best but i expected to fail!
serious.
i was like staring open mouthed at the paper.
LOL.
but there were some easy questions la.
=p.

geography today.
no kick la.
a1, no problem.

someones at obs camp now. =(

oh oh oh.

CHC's (city harvest church) OVERRATED!
seriously! all they do is praise and worship.what kind of church invites bands to perform during service? who holds mass at the espanade?!
do they really hold proper mass? sacrements?
blahh.
okay so im not that holy also.
=p

2006-02-26T12:57:00.000+08:00

nobody said i was cool. nobody said i was goodlooking.nobody said anything.
your opinions belong to you. i frankly, dont need to hear 'em. thats preciselt why i dont care anymore. i piss people off cos i can and i will. its become fun.
:D

anyway, since i got good feedback from my dear readers ;D i shall continue my personal waste of space a.k.a my dearest blog.

can i ask a question everyone? why do american lesbians look so cool while singaporean lesbains look pathetic?
answer:bungs.
yes. bungs are a disgrace.
see the american lesbians? they both look like actual women. not like bungs in singapore who try to look like guys.
i hate bungs! i shall not deny the fact!
they are stealing all the pretty women away from all the REAL guys.
oh c'mon. dont give that excuse saying that you know women better or that you give better oral sex( i doubt with my kinda tongue). can you do a flower tongue? =p. i can.
and whats with cutting you hair short?
boys in a boys school arent allowed to leave their hair long just cos their feminine.
whats with the girls schools?!

whats with all the adrogynous people nowadays?
wtf.
you all are girls! you have boobs! you have vaginas!
so stop acting like guys cos you dont have dicks and cant produce semen.
yall will NEVER be like us guys. do you think of sex 90% of the time? i think not.

FUCK YOU AND FUCK OFF!

or maybe im jealous cos i havent met a prettier girl then those bungs have.
aww. 0_o.

blahh.

oh, this blog and all its post are for entertainment purposes only. no offence to anyone. but, if you dislike this blog, then thats your personal opinion.
you cant please everyone.

2006-02-22T14:33:00.000+08:00

life's contradicting.
well, duh.

people dont give their explanation,
you judge based on what you think,
and then suddenly you're wrong.
what the f*rk.

dear readers, do not be so paranoid and think this is about you.

-pissing people off cause i can. =D

oh the nyp scandal wasnt a really big deal.
i should know. i got the video!
HAHAHA.
its just like any other porn "flick" just that its blur-rier , singaporean and people may go to jai because of it.
LOL!

oh yeah, i've been trying t get dionne to blog about the differences between maris stella and cedar girls.
haha. one has the top scorer for o'levels 2005 and one's the worst SAP school. haha. do you know which one is which? do you need me to spell it out for you? =p
okay. dionne says marist are smelly.
OBJECTION!
our pits smell. then you girls smell down there ah? LOL. only a minute number of marist smell. those are the mo-peng ones. no discriminatoon here okay! i've come across some in maris stella but that doesnt mean all of them are. fat people too!.
but i've got mo-peng and fat friends so we live with it. BRUDDERS!
50% of marist have hot bods. i dunno. i dont observe.
me and wil ran topless for 2.4 km run. marist should run with cedarians. good what! 100% marist pass rate. cedarians get to see hot bods and we get to see good looking girls. =D (thats my general impression of cedar) cedarians should have a big grin on their pretty faces now. =p.
acording to dionne, cedarians run at thier primary school track. monotonus! run our route! can see passer-bys staring at you when you run topless! abs baby!

cedarians should run topless! LOL! i mean as girls, dont you have the urge to be free? LOL. me talking nonsense once again. i am sick. so do not spam my board saying that okay?
singaporeans are too conservative.
big hoo-ha over nyp sex tape. childish.
MARIS STELLA SHOULD GO CO-ED!
YEAH! have you seen our canteen situation?!
cut queue here cut queue there.then some childish marist spit ice. -_-'''.
some shove thier faces into their food. girls would teach us to be proper gentlemen.
maybe girls could teach us to be smarter too! =p.
but more guys would just try to impress the girls. wah! gangster! =O. scary shit. NOT.
and we guys would just be hornier!
LOL

cedarians! give me feedback after you read thi post!.
=) greatly appreciated.

2006-02-21T16:24:00.000+08:00

im happy!

cos im studying!
YAY!
maths CA tomorrow!
=D

its rewarding when you study and know how to do the questions and get them right.
haha.

akltg course really changed me!
YAYNESS!

i shall go back to studying soon!

HAVE FUN EVERYONE!

oh by the way readers, if you wanna continue reading my blog, please leave a tag. or i'll lock my blog up and give the pw to those who tag.
MANY THANKS! =D

dont believe everything you hear. dont think everything's always about you. you'll have a much happier time.
dont think your so important. give the mirror a good hard stare. you'll see the face of weakness looking back. it wasnt easy, but it was worth it.

2006-02-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

due to the graphic nature of this post, viewer discretion is advised.
dont like it? close the page.in lehman's terms: dont like, fuck off la.

okay, lets get down to business.
we and friends have realised that a prticular school, has a particular trait. well, duh.
lets call this school; school x. okay? okay.
school x is located somewhere near central singapore. okay? okay.

readers, are you ready for the truth?=p
lets say you like a girl from school x. okay? okay.
you tell her your interested okay? okay.
she expresses interest too okay? okay.
so everything's going great okay? okay.

THEN.

just when you want her to be yours, she tells you she likes another guy too. okay? NOT OKAY!.
unless your like the benelovent RBTHW.
okay back to the topic.
then your left with you jaw open and her drooling over that guy. and you sit down, wondering what happened. all your efforts gone.
you think you can patch it back. is it possible?
what does she think? you dont know.

so you try to move on.
can you really? seriously. really?
maybe you cant.
does she still like you?

angst man. or maybe im too old fashioned.
maybe liking two people at the same time is the new "in" thing.
yeah. MAYBE thats it.

2006-02-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

cat class today was enlightening!
didnt think i'd ever say that about sunday class.
angie came down today. maybe thats why.

her's and lester's teaching really make me miss sat class.
in my honest opinion, sat class are really much more matured and ready for confirmation than sunday class.
hmm. lester and lai really taught us well in sec 1.
sun class is screwed up la.
immature people.
act cool/cute. wtf.
confirmation's this year!
i wanna go back to sat class. really.
but my sat's are too busy.
band, tuition, alumni band.

dear god,
please make me a better catholic.
please let me go to mass for all the right reasons.
please help me love and treasure you more.
please stop me from doing wrong and sinning against you.

=D

I LOVE YOU GOD!

Jesus, you are my best friend,
you will always be,
NOTHING WILL EVER CHANGE THAT.

2006-02-14T17:55:00.000+08:00

lets review what i got for valentine's day.

homework.
stress.
rejection.
anger.

due to some unforseen changes, alrick was my valentine.
yup.
bought bubble tea and sat at the playground.
sad day.

fucking band.
use my mouthpiece.
FUCK YOU LA.
went home halfway during band.
no mood to play or teach.

FUCK YOU SAINT VALENTINE.

2006-02-13T18:19:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS FUCKED UP TODAY.

ALMOST EVERYTHING IS FUCKED UP TODAY.

but everything will be tomorrow won't it?
please say it will be.

gotta think positive justin.
will yourself to do it.

god lead me on the path of good and steer me away from evil.

2006-02-09T19:31:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS FUN!

maybe except chinese.
but its actually quite fun. with all the tests and all. and no. for all you concerned friends, i have not gone off my rockers.
im still sane.=D
maybe its the bunch of jokers im sitting with.
maybe its the drawing on the table.
maybe its recess with ex and present classmates. fitness corner gang. LOL
maybe its cos I DO MY HOMEWORK THIS YEAR!
hurrr.
failed only 1 test so far. bio. haha almost everyone failed so not really counted. hear that owen?
HAHAHA
emaths test not bad la. careless. can pass!

band's petition. COOOL
hope something happens.
like me becoming dm.
LOL!
yeah right. like that will ever happen. but hey you never know right? LOL
band's not THAT bad.
but its still slack la.

soccer and basketball "kah-kees" is band.
life's not too shabby la.

at least not yet!

=D i shall try to remain positive for as long as i can! =)

2006-02-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

they incerased the 2.4km to 5.4!
=o!
haha
so we ran the first round and walked the second.
slacked with wilfred after the first.
then we saw mr. koh!

omg.
ran all they way out of school. haha
took out shirt and RAN!
haha
passer by's were staring
me and wil, topless running.

wil is hawt!
haha

ss test sure die.
=o.
band.

SLACK.
bathed during band. heh. s-l-a-c-k.
hurr.

soccer after band with stanley and chang jun.
okay la.
quite fun.
haha.

kyk having period.

mssb sec 3 DRUM MAKOR SUCKS!.
i can be much much better.

LOL!

2006-02-04T19:01:00.000+08:00

alumni was okay today.
=p.
drills in main band were fun too.
HAHAH.

damn homework.
600 word chinese essay on why we have to serve ns.
go die la.
DIE!

dont do. =p

CAs coming.
getting down to work!

2006-01-29T18:41:00.000+08:00

b-o-r-e-d.

i wanna go out with someone.
anyone.
go clubbing.

time passes so slowly eh.

2006-01-26T19:49:00.000+08:00

WILFRED! CHIO BU!

MUACKS!

2006-01-25T18:06:00.000+08:00

chinese lesoons in school are officialy the longest periods on the face of this planet.
2 periods feels like a day.
time passes so s-l-o-w-l-y.
argh.

headed to j8 after schhol.saw shamus and dexter. braynard came later. haha
saw things that guys werent supposed to see.
accidental exposure. uh oh!
not once or twice.
three times!
the first one was like deliberate!
i was sitting opposite this school girl then she was looking at me.
the she took damn long to cross(as in sit crossed legged) her legs while still looking at me luh! walu!
number two was also in macs.
number three was with the girl and her boyfriend.
was like woah! who ask you stand near the glass railings near the escaltor in a skirt?!
WALU!
but i shall not bore you with more details.

ooh. lucky me!.
heh.

lots of homework and tests.
thank god for the long weekend.

should i go alumni band?
LOL.

=p

2006-01-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

you'll never know, how far i'd go,

for you.

oh wells.

2006-01-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

dm was like blah blah blah about my hair today.
why?
cos it was waxed/styled into a fin.
and he was like, i dont think your mom encourages that.
cos my mom knows him(he used o work under her in the army)
bloody hell.
she supports my fin! haha.
she allows me to go cut mohawk at the end of the year.
my sis's gonna cut too.
haha.
we'll look even more alike.( why does everyone say we look alike in the first place?)
LOL.
band tmr.

i wanna pump!
=)

2006-01-22T19:34:00.000+08:00

mmhmm.
schools not that bad.
not that good either.
LOL
brought the cam to school on thurs and fri.
wilfred and hs zi lian-ing!. haha. we took a lot of pics.
(refer to friendster or ask me) HAHAHA.

wrote a song(again) for valentines. LOL.
ego-ism. =p

where are my valentines?

i'll lie on my bed alone,

thinking of all the girls.

time to play the field,

time to face the world.

i thought i was popular,

i thought i was cool.

i thought i was hot sometimes.

so,where are all my valentines,

tonight.

why do you not like me,

where have i gone wrong?

cos if that girl dont like me,

she must be a les-bi-on.

this day's supposed to be fun.

full of love and joy

so why am i just sitting here

watching the couples go by.

i thought i was popular,

i thought i was cool.

i thought i was hot sometimes.

so,where are all my valentines,

tonight.

i'll turn to myself,

hide into my shell.

never come out again.

hope yall doing well.

so last call people.

you better catch me 'fore im gone.

once im out of sight,

thats it.so long and good night.

i thought i was popular,

i thought i was cool.

i thought i was hot sometimes.

so,where are all my valentines,

tonight.

2006-01-18T16:05:00.000+08:00

if all you people dont like, tell it to my face.
dont give me that "im not worthy of thou" shit.
i wont change for you.
DEAL WITH IT.

in other news,
school was okay today.
slacked through chinese.
wrote a song. (refer below)

so just go on talking about me. im immature. but how much of me do you really know?

have fun bitches.

HAVE FUN

how did it turn out like this,

why did it all just fall apart.

how could i score yet miss,

why did you break my heart.

you chose, that guy,

but i just don't know why.

but he'll never see,

the bitch you become, eventually.

i hope that punk dies,i hope you're happy now.

cos i saw through all your lies

and you didn't think i'd find out.

so i'll just sit here and watch you cry,

when that little punk kid dies.

you think i dont know,

what your friends say about me.

you chose, to believe them,

how could be so naive?

why did i waste my time,

what made me think it was real.

how could i have been so blind,

how could you just not feel?

i hope that punk dies,i hope you're happy now.

cos i saw through all your lies

and you didn't think i'd find out.

so i'll just sit here and watch you cry,

when that little punk kid dies.

so thank you for the ride,

now that its all said and done.

i hope you're happy now,

bitch i hope your having fun!

i hope that punk dies,i hope you're happy now.

cos i saw through all your lies

and you didn't think i'd find out.

so i'll just sit here and watch you cry,

when that little punk kid dies.

2006-01-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

the osim i gallop of all things is v-u-l-g-a-r.
i know. i tried it.

it vibrates your entire ass and im sure more places if your a girl.
true what!
coming from a boys school, we took a look at it and knew at once what it looked for.
body toning? heck no. taboo!

one look and we all know it was designed by a group of balding middle aged men with too much free time. BUT im sure they have brilliant minds too right? =p.

the music in the advertisement doesnt help either.
you expect me to believe that its about toning? one word. drumroll please!
stimulation.
go figure. =p

yeah so to all you girls out there, gladly try this brilliant product!

2006-01-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

okay.

i have been sick.
sucks.
went for cca maze yesterday.
threw up as soon asi got there.
bloody food poisoning.

played alright.
self modified our scored a bit. hahaha.
had to attract the sec 1s and their parents.

rubbish.

wore a pink tie to get people to remember band. LOL
wore a black tie too.

wasn't feeling so well after that so i came home and slept and slept and slept.

got back my phone. my sis's is suddenly working again.

yay.

2006-01-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

my sis stole my phone!
damn.

hers was spoilt so she just took out my sim card and took my phone.
boohoo.
nevermind. ima good brother.

school is getting better as the days go by.
LONG PANTS TOTALLY OWN!
uh huh. going j8 more often after school. haha
people say i look good in long pants.
well, duh.

but how hard is it to make me look good in clothes?
HAHAHA.

band was okay la.
rebelling back already.
fuck them la.
LOL.

i dont care anymore!

FUCK AUTHORITY!

whos with me?

2006-01-03T17:56:00.000+08:00

okay first day of school today.
was aiight la.
how bad can long pants get? HAHA

quite fun actually! hahaha
my class is pretty good la.
havoc bunch. lol

towned with alrick,hui xiang and jeremy after school. ended round 11 plus.
saw joan!
hahaha.
then alricked followed liyana.
boring. haha

long pants deffinitely gets you more looks.
: D

2006-01-02T17:45:00.000+08:00

school tomorrow.
boy oh boy.

wonder who my teachers will be.

i'll keep yall posted.
hahaha.

town after school.
HAHAHA

I WANT MY SEAT AT BACK OF CLASS!

2005-12-31T13:13:00.000+08:00

So Darling, Save The Last Dance For Me

2005-12-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

dont give me that shit.

so what. i dont care about you.

man i think i need new friends. hopefully my new classmates will be better.
go figure.

INSULT.

i sleep in underwear.
so random.
HAHAHAHA

vivien is nice and sweet!
(5 words. just nice eh?) : D

2005-12-29T08:38:00.000+08:00

lainie! refer to my 2nd december post okay?

i cant copy it.
damn blogger.
so family went out to eat at marina mandarin.
was hilarious!
yeah.
bought vcds.
drumline, bring it on and 40 year old virgin.
watched drumline and 40 year old virgin till about 4am.
went to sleep. woke up at 6.
damnit.
lol
heading out for band later.
probably sleep my way through. haha

schools starting! =p

CHEERS!

It makes me ill
To see you give
Love and attention at his will
And you can't imagine how it makes me feel
To see you with him
Oh, it makes me ill
To see you give
Love and attention at his will
And you can't imagine how it makes me feel
To see you with him

sorry. needed to get that out of my system. haha. rrright.

nsync. thats some vintage shit dawg.

2005-12-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

thanks for not telling me. bitch.

im no superman

2005-12-26T15:58:00.000+08:00

all guys are brothers and all girls are lesbians.

i saw that somewhere and i found it hilarious!
HAHAHAHA

happy holidays peeps!
: D

2005-12-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

today was damn funny.
went to play ball with jarvis and chester.
then we wanted to take a bus to tp central. so the bus was coming and i stuck out my leg to stop it cos i was sms-ing someone.
so the bus stopped but the middle aged driver didnt open the doors la. scum. haha
then when he finally opened the doors, he was diao-ing me and was like "next time you better not use your leg to stop the bus". i didnt even bother to look at him. i was like yes, yes sorry boss. was laughing later. then we went to macs to eat. was crapping with them. kept burping. lol. then we met gangstas. uh huh. scold scold scold. was tempted to go toilet to settle with them. but no violence right. we settled everything by buying pens from them for charity. was damn funnt la. widen my circle of friends. hahahahaha.

MERRRY CHRISTMAS!

2005-12-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

Don't you know that
I will stand up for you
No matter what you are going through
I'm still on your side
Any time day or night
Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side

love that song by bbmak. still on your side. okay bought half of my sister's present. giving her 2 la. haha i need a black tie to go all formal this christmas! haha. yeah. and a jacket la. hurhur. started excercising today again. weights, crunches, pushups. you get the idea. yeah.the blue christmas bash is happening right now. ahh damnit. hope they have lots of fun! haha will visit soon la. haha yeah

my sweet playlist( HAHAHAHA)

still on your side- bbmak
who needs the world- nick carter
a lonley september- plain white Ts
stick with you- pussycat dolls
true- ryan cabrera
shes the one- robbie williams
thats what friends are for- dionne warwick
something about the way you look tonight- elton john
wonderful tonight- eric clapton
i'll be- goo goo dolls
you're beautiful- james blunt

im a sentimental moron

CHEERS!

2005-12-20T13:22:00.000+08:00

shit.
heard from my sis that IAG advanced is fun.
if its fun for her means its damn fun for me. haha
wanted to go but my mom says im too young.
uh huh.
so i'll prob go after o's.
thanks to shuyi and cheryl im still thinking of whether to go for the christmas bash.
mohammed is joining a acad so he'll be there. i think.
quite a few form IAG 2 are joining actually.
haha.

yeah.

back to excercising then.

cheerio!

bwah.

Congratulations on making Slytherin!
So basically, you're cunning, ambitous, and willing to use any means to meet your ends. Lots of people think Slytherins are cold, evil, heartless people.. and although some are, some are not. Slytherins are the most misunderstood people.. You're not all evil! We're misconceived and misunderstood, and have been given a bad rep.. The movie makes us look terrible. People just have this thing about people about ambition.. Hmm.. Well, you know you're the best, so I guess it doesn't matter. Gryffindor may beat you at everything.. but you still keep trying! COME ON, SHOW SOME SLYTHERIN PRIDE!

I NEED A BLACK TIE!

2005-12-19T07:30:00.000+08:00

okay.
i havent sleprt in like 18 hours.
sice i woke up yeaterday at 1PM. haha
yeah.
just didnt feel like sleeping.
watched teevee.
the view and smell of the air at 3-5 am is so coool.
so good for thinking.
yeah.

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
okay. the time now is 8.53pm.
i woke up at 7.30 after sleeping at 2.
so i didnt sleep for like 25 hours.
when i woke up just now, i thought it was morning!
haha.
in adam khoo's words. " kena langa by 700 lorry"

hahaha.
yeah all those who went for akltg should know what this means.
heard roy went back to visit them.
wonder if roy, andrew or dominic's going for the christmas bash.
shuyi is like asking me to go. siao zha bor! hahaha.
but the price is a bit steep la.
if both me and my sis go.
yeah.

cheerio!

2005-12-18T15:54:00.000+08:00

cleaned my room.
yeah.
made a huge dent.
throw and throw and throw.
NOT doing holiday homework.
screw it la.
nothings gonna bring me down. HAHA

looking the other way for inspiration.

Your Hair Should Be Blue

Wild, brilliant, and out of control.You're a risk taker with an eye to the future.

You Are 40% weird.

Normal enough to know that you're weird...But too damn weird to do anything about it!

2005-12-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

towned with alrick and ryan.
fun!
did stupid things!
we own-ed billy bombers. HAHAHA
ryan brought his cam so we took pics.
haha yeah.
nice!

2005-12-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

went to buy my upper sec singlets today.
3F! double pure. chem. bio.
YAY long pants!

life's gooood!

excercise has become my orgasm.
gotta build that temple man.

shoulders. packs.
and running for stamina.

life cant get better. can it?

I WANNA BEACH!

uh huh.

2005-12-14T14:17:00.000+08:00

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
Feeling like a fool cos I let you down
Now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears
I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

Those simple words hit so hard
They turned my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more.

its a real nice song. describes me? a little? haha very little.
i feel better now that i've moved on.
haha
iknow. im a sentimental fag. hahahaha

JASLYN JOHNSON!
I MISS YOU!

i wont let you slip out of my hands again.

2005-12-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

basketball.

2005-12-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

i bought my deuter bag for next year.
YAY!
i saw a sling bag at queensway. nice luh!
saw wil too. haha.
that ffer pierced his ear.
damn it.
i wanna pierce lip or ear!
2 on ear? yeah. haha
my wishlist is considerably shorter.
now all i need are a few graphic tees.
toying with the idea of joining the gym.
cooool.

2005-12-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

i bought my and1 bball shoes. like finally.
bought some other stuff as well.
pants.
ooh, i can dress formally now. haha
just need a jacket.
man, i've worked on my abs too much that i've neglected my shoulders.
have to do both now.
YAY!
excercise.
push-ups too!
crunches!
i have set my fitness goal. now just to work towrds it.

AKLTG ROCKS!

2005-12-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

In no particular order, list down 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see at school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox. at the end of this quiz, list 5 people you would like to do this quiz!

1.ryan
2.vivien
3.huixiang
4.joan
5.miss lee
6.alrick
7.jarvis
8.douglas
9.miss lu
10.owen
11.chien teng
12.ian
13.genevieve
14.gabriel
15.yongxun

So what do you think of number 4?
shes damn cool. and crazy! haha
How would you feel if number 4 slapped you on your face?
hurt. face pain what right?
How nice is number 6
quite nice. will be nicer if he buys stuff for me from italy. haha
On a scale of 1-10, rate how good looking number 5 is.
erm.. a 6.5? whoops.
Will you ever fall for number 11?
no way. im not gay. hahaha
Honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
cry. i just would have lost a sax senior!
What sport would you play with number 12
basketball. i'd probably lose.
What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
i'd laugh my ass off :D
Do you hate number 9?
no. shes my bio teacher!
How much do you like number 2?
er.. a lot? hahaha. no la. i can understand her. hahah
Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
HAHAHAHAHA NO!!
Would 14 one day kill you?
maybe. hmmm..
Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
no preference. ;)

5 people!
ryan
clara
vivien
owen
wilfred

2005-12-07T11:49:00.000+08:00

the adam khoo camp rocked my socks!
it was damn fun la.
now i know why ian boon told me adam was a tough guy.
haha. go figure.=p
yeah. the cracked alot of jokes with us.
gary and amin(a) too.
LOL.
very fun.
met great people too.
my group mates and the coaches.
all of them!
they're not much older than us so its good la.
yeah.
best camp ever!

2005-12-02T10:05:00.000+08:00

thank you ryan for making me do this and wasting about 7 minutes of my life.

"Rules of the game. Post 5 weird things or random facts about yourself. Then at the end of the list, 5 names that are in line to do this. Dont forget to leave a comment 'You've been tagged' in their blogs to read yours. "

1. i have spasms of retardness. really! at ryan's house i just went crazy when we were playing pool.

2. during band, i go to the toilet for the smallest of reasons. sometimes i go there to just get a sip of water from the water cooler.

3. whenever i'm watching teevee, i always want to have the remote right next to me. no one else should touch it. rawr!

4. i like my songs to be shuffled. thats why my itunes is always on too shuffle and i have the ipod shuffle. hahah

5. i enjoy looking at people in the train and see how far i can see over their heads before i get "interrupted" by another fellow tall person.

okay lets see. i want
1.alyssa
2.jayne
3.felicia
4.owen
5.kimberlyanne

hahaha HAVE FUN!

2005-12-01T19:58:00.000+08:00

okay, i really wanna go to the beach before school starts again. yeah go tann. im already 2 out of 3. im tall and hndsome. not dark. yet. haha probably with ryan and hx. 3 people. cant play soccer. jarvis wont go. he's self concious. the rest? nah. haha havent planned anything concrete yet.
siloso beach calls for me!
haha

yeah so if anyone wants me to go with them, give me 'bout a week or more's advance notice okay? need to do abit of conditioning first.

maybe i should take a leaf out of michelle sham's book. ala crash dieting. C-R-A-S-H. geddit? go figure. hahaha. i'll probably burn too!
or a leaf out of my plmgss neighbour's book. run EVERYDAY. around the carpark. couldnt be that bad right? except it'll be abit boring.
OR
i could just eat ONE meal per day.

like today!
mom didnt cook so i didnt bother to eat. hahah
so at like 4 i got off my lazy ass and went to macs to get lunch/dinner.
big mac meal+mcwings.
okay so its not that healthy but im eating less! i only ate that and two mini timeout candybars.
doing crunches later. (: i sound metro. who cares. my bodehh. hahahaha.

oh yeah, got into 3f. with jarvis, stanley, jasper, ian lam, wilfred and hengwei.
not so bad right. i din know jarvis was so smart! double pure. chem/bio.
haha kidding jarvis!
there are irritating people in my class next year. lets pray for patience
i was flipping through the chem and Amaths textbook and im already terrified! lol.

i pity the exco next year. ima make hell for them. haha me and alrick. HAHAH.
should be fun. from the looks of it, we wont be pumping anytime soon once they take over.
what a shame.
i love pumping. its quite fun actually.
REALLY!
i shall play the gold sax when band stops. take it home. haha
long pants next year. i cant wait for my christmas present. that deuter speedlight bag. nice.
i'll look so majorly hot next year.
girls beware. approach with caution.
want me to get you a bucket? cos i'll make your heart melt.
i just thought of that. corny right? HA-HA-HA!

yeah. this in black.

2005-11-30T19:26:00.000+08:00

band camp was okay. fullstop.
no nomination.
oh well, life goes on.
every band has its rebels.
fuck authority.

fuck it. fuck you.

2005-11-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

going to band camp tomorrow.
i expect it'll be fun.
i think the sec 2s will be group leaders.
yeah. last yearwas like that too.
new band tees. YAY!
hope they're black. or pink!
then after band camp is that adam khoo camp.
its gonna be fun la.
must keep spirits up!

JASLYN IS SO TOTALLY HOT!

2005-11-24T20:01:00.000+08:00

yeah so bought my books and LONG pants today.
actually i got my mom to buy while i went to band.
HAHA thanks mom!
pure chem, pure bio books are heavy!
long pants are cool. no singlets yet.
yeah. nice nice.
girls should watch out. i'll look sec 4. haha.
wanted to go for the chinablack party. it would be so easy to enter. but decided against it.
if i go to the same class as those who i know to have the same subject combi as me, lets see.
ian lam, wilfred, hengwei, stanley, chien teng, ryan, and jarvis will be in my sec 3 class.
HEY! that aint bad! hahaha.
band was alright today.
saw stanley in the bus AGAIN. went with justin and stan to band.
mr. lin came. warmed us up, played awhile then he left so.... SECTIONALS! my favourite part of band.
why? sectionals=slack. look at my senior douglas. haha 'nuff said.
lol. craaped around smsing alrick while playing and doing stupid things during drills. my soparano sax is back! stupid repairman.the cork was too thick. haha so he had to change it.
yeah. nice day.

I believe in the One called Saviour
I believe He's the risen One
I believe that I'll live forever
I believe that the King will come
Because I have found this love and I believe in the Son
Show me your way

Jesus you are my best friend and you will always be nothing will ever change that

2005-11-22T20:19:00.000+08:00

double pure.
chem+bio.

yeah. thats about it.
my classmates are gonna be mostly nerds.
but not as bad as owen.
right owen? haha
poor boy.

band was fun today.
starting to like shalom.
nice to play.
hahaha.

cheers.

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
It's all about You
It's all about You,
Jesus I'm sorry Lord for the thing I've made it
All about You, Jesus

2005-11-20T13:16:00.000+08:00

IM FEELING SUICIDAL.

i feel a sense of emptiness.
its hard watching you smile.
but i hope you smile all the time
just as long as your happy.
thank you for all the great memories.
MUAHHHS. (:

nobody said it was easy.
its such a shame for us to part.
nobody said it was easy.
noone said it would be this hard.
im going back to the start.

CHELSEA WON!
3-0!
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

where's newcastle? oh yah, forgot. they got blown away. LOL
good luck trying to catch up!

expected actually. even wihout drogba.
blues shall dominate.

heard that man u won. haha they dont need keane.
van nistelrooy and his post keane syndrome. hahaha
3-1.
conceded! BOO! alan smith was not bad, but he made a blunder. hah
arsenal. van persie and henry.
hmm most of the scorers are dutch eh?
nevermind.
wigan almost won!
do not underestimate wigan!

hahah

CHELSEA!

2005-11-18T12:05:00.000+08:00

Your LOVE NUMBER is 9 if your birth date falls on: 9th, 18th and 27th

9.
Creative, intuitive and imaginative , these three words describe you best.You are also quite impulsive when it comes to love , making your love life unpredictable.You are also passionate and loyal. -Your love match: Get a guy/girl who digs and understands your artistic nature.

VIRGO
Great talker. Sexy. Always Horny.Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Great kisser.

my choices on a quiz.

1. Pick your favorite color out of the following:
Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Purple
2. Pick your favorite animal out of the following:
Cat, Dog, Fish, Snake, Parrot, Mouse
3. Pick your desired honeymoon spot:
Hawaii, New York, East Africa, Spain, Montana
4. Pick your favorite instrument:
Violin, Piano, Electric, Guitar, Drums
5. Pick your favorite soft drink:
Dr. Pepper, Sprite, Coca Cola, Mountain Dew, Pepsi

answers

Red - Adventurous
Snake - Boyish
Hawaii - Romantic
Drums - Wild
Sprite - Wacky

they supposedly describe me.
do they?
yes.VERY

i just cant stop these tears from falling.

2005-11-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

i made minor chages to my profile.
haha i grew.
lol.
my hottie pal's com broke down.
oh how sad.
haha.
im friggin bored.
air cons coming on mon.
YAY!
COOLNESS!

2005-11-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

just got back from catholic camp. was quite fun la. haha. crapped around.

the camp was based on homecoming. was lord of the ring themed. 4 groups: gandalf, sam, frodo and aragorn. haha. was in aragorn with elliot and holy and some others.we did everything for points. wanted to win! lol. we did the YMCA dance just for points! hawhaw. the twins came in the evening. then at night we played night soccer after dinner until about 12 plus. damn fun. almost everyone played barefoot at one point or another. badd move! i scored 3 goals! ian scored some nice ones. matthew and aaron were giving our defense problems.lol. thus, everyone got blisters.matthew's burst while he was playing.mine burst the day later. ouch! then went with the twins to bathe. used the hose. haha. bathing with them is hilarious. they call underwear suspenders! lol! go figure. they kept calling their elder bro to ask what subs to take. haha appealing. im either doing double science or double humans + combined science. i like humans better. (=

second day was more erm.. interesting. ha. after breakfast had the session of family relationships. then we had a 2 hour break. then we had games! haha dressed up elliot as a mummy. toilet paper and everything. he had two pieces of tissue over his newspaper tits. HAHA. then we proceeded down to the bball courts where we had to defend our mummy while using water bombs to soak the other groups mummys. haha we lost. elliot was running around irritating other people. no wonder we lost. haha.then we had the worst game ever. the flour game! omg. that was bad! we had to put two watermelon slices under our armpits, a small potato between the knees and celery in our mouths. then we had to hop around a cone 5 times then hop to the chair on the other side of the court to cream our faces in flour to look for m-ms. the edible sweet. that one. could only use our mouths. FLOUR TASTE DAMN BAD. felit like puking after that. we got 2nd! ha. then had another session then bbq. douglas and collin became the HAWKER TWINS! lol. me and the twins were barbequeing satay all the way. the teachers said it tasted good! then we bathed which was damn funny with douglas trying to spot his 6 pack in the mirror and collin grinning in the mirror checking his smile. then we went the student recreation centre to sleep. it was air conditioned! was actually meant for the novena mission team which was the people "leading" us. lent my inflatable pillow to collin. matthew, andrew, ian, aaron and me took the couch at first. very crammed. matthew had to lie on top of all of us. then this morning, aaron had "won" the couch. he was the only one there. the rest were on other couches. i migrated to the floor. haha.

yeah quite fun. got a rosary bracelet and a time out bar for winning- most points remember? everyone got a rosary ring after mass.
i shall be a better catholic now! yay!

and by the way.

im still waiting

2005-11-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

according to the online list, im going combined phys and chem

FUCK

jarvis is better.

WHAT THE FUCK

i think im screwed.

lets pray that its screwed.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

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bits and peices from Swing, Swing by The All American Rejects

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Swing, swing,
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?

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bits and pieces from My Paper Heart by The All American Rejects

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me, please, I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is easiest when I'm around you

2005-11-10T18:53:00.000+08:00

today was fun.
towned with alrick and anthony after band.
saw many friends.
the good and the BAD
saw the RETARDED 5 in the train.
walked off to another part of the train.
go figure.
walked around town.
saw gen, kim and im guessing desiree? haha. nvm
saw roy pek.saw keenan. saw brent.
haha. alrick saw his sis! me too! haha my sis was gonna get her tongue pierced but she decided against it later on.
lol.
alrick was thirsty so we went 7 eleven.
he bought slurPEE. i bought vodka.
the counter girl was like" you in poly ah?"
was wearing white polo, jeans and dunks. look old enough. lol.
then i replied yeah.
HAHAHA
she later asked me whether i needed her to help open the bottle.
i got away. again!
dao-ed the RETARDED 5 the whole way. no point la.
cannot pose properly. ok 'nuff said.
a lot of girls checking me out today. haha yeah.
I STILL WANT VODKA!

2005-11-09T13:11:00.000+08:00

Dear God:

please guide me towards good and steer me away from evil.
please teache me how to pick myself up from where i've fallen and continue.
thank you for all that i have.
thank you for all that i've lost. it wasnt meant to be mine huh?
thank you for the blessings.

good luck with the apocalypse ((:

oh look! i just spelled f-u-c-k with my alphabet soup!

burp!

2005-11-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

im giving up.
its got too painful.
i just saw her.
those wounds stung bad.
i wont destroy that happy look on her face.
shes too good fot me.
let me crawl away, away from civilization.
alone.
the pain just doesnt go away does it.

Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone

I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

2005-11-04T17:13:00.000+08:00

its just too hard.
should i give up?
i dont know what you're thinking.
i dont know what to do.

2005-11-03T11:55:00.000+08:00

i want basketball shoes!
i have good deals.
hui xiang is selling for $50.
the and1 one in tp is on 30% discount and if i borrow jarvis's world of sports membership card its another 10%.
which makes the $159 go down to $100!
if there was no discount at all, $159 could cover both shoes!
WTF!
all i hear now is mom's blah blah blah.

sigh. guess that means i wont get to buy.

2005-11-01T08:58:00.000+08:00

there's a place in my heart where you used to be.

);

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cos somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cos I knowI won't forget you

can we take it back to start? is that possible?

2005-10-31T20:09:00.000+08:00

band was ok today.

douglas and huixiang took a pic of me posing as stamford raffles on top of the place meant fro brother chanel's head.
LOL
i want the pic!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

im sick of being in the wrong. you try to run away.
its not my fault that it turned out like this.
hope that guy's a gentleman.
cheers to your life yeah?
have fun.

2005-10-31T10:41:00.000+08:00

disregard the girl at the side of my new skin.
the tagboards under the stuff about me.
have fun during the hols yeah?

some of my links dont work.
go figure.

2005-10-30T12:16:00.000+08:00

i love her!
too bad shes attached.
just cant get her out of my mind.
still waiting.

sorry, disregard what i just said.
im drunk
im delirious
im STRESSED

did it work?
did i convince you?
cos thats how you made me feel.

guess what. NO.

have a nice life ok.

cheers to that guy.

2005-10-29T16:26:00.000+08:00

Every memory of walking out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for.
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Goodbye, goodbye

Where is your boy tonight?
I hope he is a gentleman.
Maybe he won't find out what I know:
You were the last good thing about this part of town

fuck. contradicting statements. grr..